Jacey Leans on Jesus in the Lonely Times
God first got my attention a couple of years ago, when I was crying for no apparent reason and all I could think of was that I had used God for most of my life and that I didn't want to do that anymore.
Before that night I only prayed when I had an issue, like my most common prayer was "God will you help me go to sleep. Amen." He really wasn't a priority in my life. Now I talk to God like my friend, not just someone who helps me fall asleep.
My life has definitely has not gone smoothly. I've been bullied.Though I grew up in a Christian home and had good influences around me all of my life, I've been truly lonely. In grade six, lots of the kids at school called me names. I had a hard time making friends after that for a couple more years and it is still difficult sometimes now.
However, there are so many great people that God has put in my life for whom I am grateful. My whole family, immediate and extended, have been a good influence on me and have set me off into the right direction. When I have questions about what something means in the Bible I can go and ask my brother, Chad, and he will explain it to me. My parents are good in being there and knowing just what to say when I'm not okay.
Heather Enns is one of the leaders at my youth group. She has been hanging out with me for the past little while, mostly just going to movies and going out for coffee. Whether she knows it or not, she has had a great impact on me and I am forever grateful.
God is still working in my life as we speak. Some of these things I am mostly over - but not all the way, and some of these things I really struggle with.
In late July I got a back brace because I have scoliosis. So a back brace is this big plastic thing that wraps around you and makes you look bigger then you actually are. This was a real struggle for me and it still is. I use to be the one who everyone called a stick. So I have had to find somewhere else to get self-confidence. I've had trouble with that for a lot of my life, and this didn't help.
That is where God stepped in. He is working in me, getting me to believe in myself and to trust in Him.
The other thing that God is working in me right now, is really sticking to my beliefs, and not being shy when telling people that I'm a Christian. I am going to a public school for the first time, I went to Catholic before, and I am really struggling not to become like the rest of the kids. I don't have any Christian friends at school so, sometimes I feels like it's me against the world.
A verse that I love is 2 Timothy 2:22, "Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart." Sometimes when I feel like I can't control my emotions, this verse helps me to forget about them, and just be the best Christian that I can be. Like the first time I heard this verse was when I was feeling down, and my good friend showed it to me to help me, and it totally lifted my spirits and got me back on my feet again to face the new day.
I want to get baptized because I love God and he saved me and I feel like this is the right time for me to do this.
[Ed. Jacey was baptized on January 25, 2009 at Forest Grove Community Church, in Saskatoon, SK]